[ Trust John Allerdyce to be on top of his business. He mulls over the other's words. It sounds so simple and yet he knows it's also more complicated than that. Taking a deep breath and letting it out in a sigh, Bobby nods, his gaze still fixated on his gloved hand. ]
Yeah.
[ It's soft and small but he follows that up with - ] To be fair, he also kinda has feelings for me, but he's also sorta married to the Professor, so. I don't know. [ Sighs again, now glancing up at John with a tired expression. ] Like I said, complicated.
[ as he figured. that's usually what it is whenever things are complicated between people in this place. granted, he also knows bobby, so. there's that, too.
he should stay out of it. doesn't care and all that, but. there he is. shifting his way some there where he sits to straighten up some and pull the icepack away from his busted lip. hopefully it won't become too fat of a lip with the ice having been on it.
looking to bobby then, he sighs. ]
Let me give you some advice here.
[ genuinely, that is. ]
This won't be the first or last time things are complicated with someone you fuck here. It just happens. To everyone. [ even him, yeah. ] Very rarely do I find people able to go being here without catching some sort of feelings for someone at some point. It's gonna happen and probably to multiple people. Being exclusive in a place like this just doesn't work out. Someone catches feelings, someone gets jealous, someone gets upset, some prefer to be involved with more than one person. It always happens.
[ looking down to the icepack there, he mulls over his words. ]
Just... don't overthink it. Don't compare yourself or whatever you have to what they have with someone else. I know it's easier said than done. Trust me. But you'll be bitter and miserable otherwise and I know it's hard not to think you're not enough or number one to someone or whatever. But like I said, that kind of thinking will only fuck things up worse for you here.
[ glancing over to bobby, he stares to him for a long moment. ]
I'd say don't get attached to others but I know that's not something easy for you and I don't think it works for you anyways.
[ He doesn't know what to expect when John tells him he's going to give him advice, so when he tells him genuinely good advice, Bobby's stunned speechless for a good few seconds. He just listens, takes in every word John just uttered to heart, gives them their due time to truly sink into him.
Lifting his icy gloved hand so it's not pressed against John's skin for too long, Bobby opens his mouth to speak but closes it again, as he tries to find the right words, tries to find the right reply to everything he just heard. Four years in this place has truly gave John needed wisdom about this sort of stuff, and Bobby's grateful for it.
With his lips slowly tugging up, he offers John a smile in appreciation. ]
Thanks. I... really need to hear all that.
[ Truly. Genuinely. He looks to the side, gaze falling to the floor. ] I don't wanna be his number one, anyway, because I know I'll never be. I just don't wanna lose what we have.
[ Erik's also not the only one he has feelings for, so there's that. To even think he'll be someone's number one in this place feels ridiculous when he knows he wouldn't ever be. Not that he's in the business of comparing, but sometimes he can't help it. Can't help but be slightly jealous, too. He's only human, after all, and someone who feels things intensely. Catches feelings fast. Snorting a bit in amusement, he looks back at John. ]
All this from experience, I take it? [ It's a light tease, but also to prod a little. He doesn't know a lot about John's own relationships and he just shared his. ]
I get jealous, don’t really like to share, can be an absolute asshole when I’m in the right mood. [ huff on his lips, he slowly shakes his head as he lets his thoughts drift a little. drift to all the times he’s been an asshole and pushed others away. ] I’m gasoline. Eventually I burn the people around me because I’m always lighting matches.
[ Is Bobby's swift reply, blue eyes adamant, brows furrowed just a little. Well okay, maybe just a little, but Bobby doesn't want to hear this, doesn't want John to think of himself like this.
Then, it slowly hits him, as he stares back at the red marks he just placed a gloved icy hand on. ]
Did... something happen that's why you came looking for trouble? [ With the way John is going on about this, he thinks it might be something about his relationships maybe? Because Bobby doesn't want to think this is about them after they just fucked, which they haven't actually addressed yet. ]
[ soft huff, he looks down. presses the icepack to his lip again. ]
I told you. I just get into certain moods sometimes. I tend to give people a lot of whiplash because of it.
[ to be fair, he’s gotten better at it over the time he’s spent here, but. still something that creeps up on him from time to time and he’s not always able to see it or care that it does.
sucking in a breath, he sits up again. drops the icepack away from his bottom lip. ]
If you’ve got feelings for Magneto, which I think is hilarious by the way, don’t overthink it. Just take it one day at a time. The man himself is complicated enough. No need to add more to the pot, you know?
[ Bobby lets out a breath and just nods. If John's sure nothing's amiss, then, he's going to leave it at that. He's not new to the other mutant's penchant for lashing out and finding trouble. Bobby supposes he just wants to make sure nothing's troubling him, too.
Placing the gloved icy hand over those red marks again to reduce its size and somehow also reduce the amount of blood that leaks out inside, Bobby snorts when he brings up Erik again.
Smiling, as he looks back at his friend. ] You're right. No need to really overthink it. He's complicated enough, that's for sure. [ Shakes his head. ] And I know you're gonna get a kick out of it. [ Chuckles. ] Whatever happened to I won't suck his dick if not drugged out of my mind, huh?
[ After chuckling some more - ] Thanks. Really. For the advice.
sitting there still with his shirt off and angry marks tended to with the icy glove, he looks over to bobby then. seems to be mulling over something before he looks back down to the icepack he’s been alternating in his eye and his lip. ]
Just as long as you’re good. [ he says, still looking down to that icepack before he finally looks over to bobby there. ] Happy or whatever.
[ The smile Bobby wields upon hearing those words from John can rival the fire he manipulates, warm and bright. His heart swells with an emotion he hasn't felt in so long particularly with John. He can't believe the olive branch he wanted to extend after everything, he'd be able to find here, of all places. Life's definitely full of surprises.
Blue eyes softening into a fond gaze as he looks at John, Bobby chuckles a little. ]
John. [ His icy thumb gently begins to caress that marred skin. ] I could kiss you right now. [ Says mostly in jest, but hey, they've already kissed before. ]
[ it’s not difficult for him to see the smile there that bobby wears and it has him feeling some kind of way himself upon seeing it. a way he’s not going to dissect or really get into too much, but. it’s there, nonetheless.
[ Half joking, half truth. He lifts his icy glove to let John's skin rest and breathe for a bit as slowly he leans in with a playful smile, dangerously close to the other mutant's face. ]
[ bobby leans in and john lets him. doesn’t pull or push him away. instead, he eyes him there. eyes his mouth and grins a little lazily as he looks his head to the side some. ]
[ Because John's probably the person he knows who becomes very jealous, very fast. Their whole strife is rooted in it. And he also remembers the whole thing with Nate when he first got here. So yes, Bobby wholeheartedly believes John's definitely not immune to jealousy. ]
I'm not gonna fault someone I like if they ended up fucking someone here, so long as they make it clear they love me and what we have isn't being threatened. [ Which is probably the most they can do given the nature of this place. ]
[ john has an insecurity of being replaced. not being good enough. chalk it up to his shitty home life, but it is what it is and while he tries to be a little more aware of it over the nearly four years he's been here, it still creeps up on him. still pulls him under. still gets him angry sometimes.
so he chuckles a little at bobby's words there. slowly nods his head while just as slowly licking over his lips. as if he's heard this all before. or maybe even told himself these very same words. ]
[ Bobby lets out a small hum of agreement before falling silent for a bit, focusing on his icy gloved hand on John's skin. His thoughts run over what his own words and John's reply meant, how this place really isn't fit for any actual, healthy romantic relationship, how it'd get increasingly harder the more he stays here and develop deeper feelings. He recalls John's advice.
Just take it one day at a time. Sure this place is going to test every bit of his patience and resolve when it comes to the romantic relationships he's slowly forging now but, one day at a time, always. ]
Sure, will do. [ He says softly after, finally glancing up to smile at John. ] Has anyone ever told you the same thing?
[ Is his immediate response. Bobby looks at John for a moment then reaches out his free hand to cup the other's cheek, his thumb turning into solid ice so he can also take care of his busted lip. There's a moment of silence between them for a bit, before - ]
[ the touch to his cheek doesn't get him to look over. it's the sudden icy thumb he has there against his lip that does. gaze questioning. especially when bobby goes and asks that.
a slight tip of his head back— ]
You jealous about who I fuck? [ a beat. ] Who I let fuck me?
[ Bobby shakes his head, adjusting the temperature of his icy thumb until it's just a frost now so it's not too cool for John. There's a soft but playful smile, there, on his lips as he answers. ]
I can be jealous if I want to be. Not also immune to it, you know.
[ He's just good at downplaying it now, unlike before when he was posturing at Logan over his closeness with Rogue. Dumb teenage years. ]
[ John's quip earns a laugh from Bobby, so much so that he pulls both of his hands away, both because of his laughter and so the other's skin can rest. He shakes his head as he allows a softer smile to grace his lips this time. ]
I'm just kidding, John. You do you. I'm sure you already have a lot on your plate. You wouldn't want me in it.
[ With Nate, Caliban, and now he saw in the network someone named Alec just recently arrived, he doesn't feel any of this should continue beyond the jokes and teasing they now apparently enjoy. If Bobby has more time to process whatever it is he feels for John, especially after they've just fucked, he'd have a different answer. But right now, he doesn't see a space for him in John. ]
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Yeah.
[ It's soft and small but he follows that up with - ] To be fair, he also kinda has feelings for me, but he's also sorta married to the Professor, so. I don't know. [ Sighs again, now glancing up at John with a tired expression. ] Like I said, complicated.
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he should stay out of it. doesn't care and all that, but. there he is. shifting his way some there where he sits to straighten up some and pull the icepack away from his busted lip. hopefully it won't become too fat of a lip with the ice having been on it.
looking to bobby then, he sighs. ]
Let me give you some advice here.
[ genuinely, that is. ]
This won't be the first or last time things are complicated with someone you fuck here. It just happens. To everyone. [ even him, yeah. ] Very rarely do I find people able to go being here without catching some sort of feelings for someone at some point. It's gonna happen and probably to multiple people. Being exclusive in a place like this just doesn't work out. Someone catches feelings, someone gets jealous, someone gets upset, some prefer to be involved with more than one person. It always happens.
[ looking down to the icepack there, he mulls over his words. ]
Just... don't overthink it. Don't compare yourself or whatever you have to what they have with someone else. I know it's easier said than done. Trust me. But you'll be bitter and miserable otherwise and I know it's hard not to think you're not enough or number one to someone or whatever. But like I said, that kind of thinking will only fuck things up worse for you here.
[ glancing over to bobby, he stares to him for a long moment. ]
I'd say don't get attached to others but I know that's not something easy for you and I don't think it works for you anyways.
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Lifting his icy gloved hand so it's not pressed against John's skin for too long, Bobby opens his mouth to speak but closes it again, as he tries to find the right words, tries to find the right reply to everything he just heard. Four years in this place has truly gave John needed wisdom about this sort of stuff, and Bobby's grateful for it.
With his lips slowly tugging up, he offers John a smile in appreciation. ]
Thanks. I... really need to hear all that.
[ Truly. Genuinely. He looks to the side, gaze falling to the floor. ] I don't wanna be his number one, anyway, because I know I'll never be. I just don't wanna lose what we have.
[ Erik's also not the only one he has feelings for, so there's that. To even think he'll be someone's number one in this place feels ridiculous when he knows he wouldn't ever be. Not that he's in the business of comparing, but sometimes he can't help it. Can't help but be slightly jealous, too. He's only human, after all, and someone who feels things intensely. Catches feelings fast. Snorting a bit in amusement, he looks back at John. ]
All this from experience, I take it? [ It's a light tease, but also to prod a little. He doesn't know a lot about John's own relationships and he just shared his. ]
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[ i’m the worst one, he’d said once. ]
I get jealous, don’t really like to share, can be an absolute asshole when I’m in the right mood. [ huff on his lips, he slowly shakes his head as he lets his thoughts drift a little. drift to all the times he’s been an asshole and pushed others away. ] I’m gasoline. Eventually I burn the people around me because I’m always lighting matches.
[ in other words, it’s just who he is. ]
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[ Is Bobby's swift reply, blue eyes adamant, brows furrowed just a little. Well okay, maybe just a little, but Bobby doesn't want to hear this, doesn't want John to think of himself like this.
Then, it slowly hits him, as he stares back at the red marks he just placed a gloved icy hand on. ]
Did... something happen that's why you came looking for trouble? [ With the way John is going on about this, he thinks it might be something about his relationships maybe? Because Bobby doesn't want to think this is about them after they just fucked, which they haven't actually addressed yet. ]
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I told you. I just get into certain moods sometimes. I tend to give people a lot of whiplash because of it.
[ to be fair, he’s gotten better at it over the time he’s spent here, but. still something that creeps up on him from time to time and he’s not always able to see it or care that it does.
sucking in a breath, he sits up again. drops the icepack away from his bottom lip. ]
If you’ve got feelings for Magneto, which I think is hilarious by the way, don’t overthink it. Just take it one day at a time. The man himself is complicated enough. No need to add more to the pot, you know?
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Placing the gloved icy hand over those red marks again to reduce its size and somehow also reduce the amount of blood that leaks out inside, Bobby snorts when he brings up Erik again.
Smiling, as he looks back at his friend. ] You're right. No need to really overthink it. He's complicated enough, that's for sure. [ Shakes his head. ] And I know you're gonna get a kick out of it. [ Chuckles. ] Whatever happened to I won't suck his dick if not drugged out of my mind, huh?
[ After chuckling some more - ] Thanks. Really. For the advice.
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[ or some shit.
sitting there still with his shirt off and angry marks tended to with the icy glove, he looks over to bobby then. seems to be mulling over something before he looks back down to the icepack he’s been alternating in his eye and his lip. ]
Just as long as you’re good. [ he says, still looking down to that icepack before he finally looks over to bobby there. ] Happy or whatever.
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Blue eyes softening into a fond gaze as he looks at John, Bobby chuckles a little. ]
John. [ His icy thumb gently begins to caress that marred skin. ] I could kiss you right now. [ Says mostly in jest, but hey, they've already kissed before. ]
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licking over his lips, he gives a half shrug. ]
Cause I’m so hot, right?
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[ Half joking, half truth. He lifts his icy glove to let John's skin rest and breathe for a bit as slowly he leans in with a playful smile, dangerously close to the other mutant's face. ]
But also, I realized I just like kissing you.
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Magneto like when you kiss me?
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I don't think he's the jealous type.
[ But he is, no matter how much he downplays it, so it's good to hear John's advice earlier if he's being honest with himself. ]
He'd probably be surprised, but not jealous. He's one to talk when he has me and the Professor. [ Snorts at this, shaking his head again. ]
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[ it's said a little nonchalantly, the fire manipulator giving another shrug as he watches bobby there. ]
Not even I'm immune to that.
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[ Because John's probably the person he knows who becomes very jealous, very fast. Their whole strife is rooted in it. And he also remembers the whole thing with Nate when he first got here. So yes, Bobby wholeheartedly believes John's definitely not immune to jealousy. ]
I'm not gonna fault someone I like if they ended up fucking someone here, so long as they make it clear they love me and what we have isn't being threatened. [ Which is probably the most they can do given the nature of this place. ]
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so he chuckles a little at bobby's words there. slowly nods his head while just as slowly licking over his lips. as if he's heard this all before. or maybe even told himself these very same words. ]
Come find me when you can't tell the difference.
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Just take it one day at a time. Sure this place is going to test every bit of his patience and resolve when it comes to the romantic relationships he's slowly forging now but, one day at a time, always. ]
Sure, will do. [ He says softly after, finally glancing up to smile at John. ] Has anyone ever told you the same thing?
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[ he raises a brow. curious. ]
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[ Because his love life has been placed on the spotlight here while he doesn't know anything about John except whatever Nate told him. ]
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I've heard it before. Doesn't mean I always believe it.
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[ Is his immediate response. Bobby looks at John for a moment then reaches out his free hand to cup the other's cheek, his thumb turning into solid ice so he can also take care of his busted lip. There's a moment of silence between them for a bit, before - ]
Hypothetically, would you believe me?
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a slight tip of his head back— ]
You jealous about who I fuck? [ a beat. ] Who I let fuck me?
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I can be jealous if I want to be. Not also immune to it, you know.
[ He's just good at downplaying it now, unlike before when he was posturing at Logan over his closeness with Rogue. Dumb teenage years. ]
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Guess this means I better keep my sex adventures to myself.
[ a beat as he bites down on his bottom lip gently. ]
Wouldn't want to upset poor little Bobby Drake.
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I'm just kidding, John. You do you. I'm sure you already have a lot on your plate. You wouldn't want me in it.
[ With Nate, Caliban, and now he saw in the network someone named Alec just recently arrived, he doesn't feel any of this should continue beyond the jokes and teasing they now apparently enjoy. If Bobby has more time to process whatever it is he feels for John, especially after they've just fucked, he'd have a different answer. But right now, he doesn't see a space for him in John. ]
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